Thursday, September 30, 2010

give us a chance

Hello friends. My life is still in turmoil. I got very very very close to my dream of a city job. And lost that chance. I did my very best and still - I was not chosen for the job.

Dh and I have been trying to apply for a $5k loan to finance a new-to-us (1996) motorcycle and have been turned down by every creditor so far. We have good scores, we pay off our accounts every month, and we recently paid off a car loan in it's entirety. But apparently our best is not good enough. No one will take a chance on us.

Hello world. We are here. We are college graduates. We aren't loafs. We aren't a drain on society. We married at 23. We rent a very nice apartment and live within our means. Give me a freaking job. Give us a freaking loan. We will pay you back. I will work hard for your company.

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In other news, we are planning a few parties for the fall. One is our annual anniversary dinner slash birthday party for immediate family. It should be fun as long as I can pull my head out of the sand in time to plan something fun. I always have this dream that the family will somehow pull out instruments and sing old folk songs until the wee hours, but that hasn't happened ever. I miss singing like I miss swimming. Two things I got to do as a kid daily. Being an adult stinks in some respects. I want to hear my youngest brother sing...I really lost it seeing him in Godspell as Jesus. That first scene of Prepare Ye was my closest mother moment ever. Proud mama Eileen cried her eyes out.

My friend Kati sings beautifully, too. And I never get to hear that either. And my mom and Colum on the piano? Dad on the guitar? We could really have a hootenanny going. Really... it's all happening in my brain right now you should see it. :)

We'll probably just end up watching stupid internet cartoons as usual. Why does that always happen at parties? As if the only thing my dh and my brothers have in common is the internet. Hmmm.

Oh, what's that you say? What about the second party? Well let me tell you. Come close. Shhhh. It's a Harry Potter Party.

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! I have been wanting to throw one for a few years now and the movie is coming out in November. I have plans for the living room, the bathroom, our bedroom, and the porch. Just try and stop me from going overboard with this one. Accio party!!

2 comments:

  1. I teared up when I read your statement about my beautiful voice. I miss singing, too. And, frequently, when Greg isn't home, you'll find me belting out some random song. I've had "Belle" stuck in my head off and on since my birthday....

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  2. If the family sings - I hope someone has a way to record it!! Play it over and over again to brighten shitty days. ;-) Eileen, you're a doll, and while it sucks waiting for what you want... enjoy the benefits that come with the moment you're in... it will move you closer to what you ultimately love. ;-)

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